I was day-dreaming today as I made my way along a Shropshire lane on my way to teach creative writing to some excitable children. What is this really all about I was asking myself, and what am I doing it for? I was imagining that I had achieved all the worldly goals: a house, financialContinueContinue reading “What is it really all for anyway?”
Author Archives: lizpike
Store it up..
A kernel is sometimes all it takes. A feeling, a word, an image that sums up how we are feeling, a verse from a song. Store them up, write them down. In those years of relentless parenting with three under fives, I often had a feeling, a desire to say something which would be snatchedContinueContinue reading “Store it up..”
Type One
A poem about my daughter’s diagnosis with type one diabetes. This poem is in my book There You Are, a collection of 34 hand lettered and illustrated poems about motherhood. You can find it here.
For When We Don’t Know What is Coming: an unexpected diagnosis
We had just moved to the wilds of Shropshire, with a two-week old baby and two pre-schoolers, and everything was new. My husband was beginning to concentrate on his music full-time, and the two eldest children had just started in a new preschool. There was time for the dust to settle. But I still hadContinueContinue reading “For When We Don’t Know What is Coming: an unexpected diagnosis”
Shine Like Stars
So much of my life as a writer has been about waiting. It’s frustrating as a creative outlet in that for a lot of the time, your work has to be validated by someone else for it to appear in print. Even now, there are a few pieces of my work that have been published,ContinueContinue reading “Shine Like Stars”
Letting Go
Sending my novel out to agents feels a curious thing. I have finished at last. I breathe a sigh of relief. I am proud of what I have achieved. But I also find myself stepping back from it. It is its own thing, launched into the inboxes of strangers. I can’t imagine how is perceivedContinueContinue reading “Letting Go”
Commissions by Little Bird Editions
Really pleased with this commission for a friend. Her own words and a gorgeous icy blue for the print. Commission your own print- you can request commissions from the shop here. Happy days #livecreatively
Trembling Heart
A poem about the night that my daughter was diagnosed with Type 1, back in 2013 when she was 2 and a half. I held you to me on the bed and smelt your hair, felt your lightness,as your father bustled in the darkness for your favourite things.We had been to the doctors thatContinueContinue reading “Trembling Heart”
Afterwards, a work in progress…
And breathe… first day back to school for the kids which means I finally have some time! Here is the latest work in progress. To be included in a book of poems that should be ready by Autumn 🤞 🙏xx #handlettering #poems #instapoetry #livecreatively #parenting EDIT: You can find the finished poem in There YouContinueContinue reading “Afterwards, a work in progress…”
Uncle John
A very old poem and a kernel for the novel. The smell of the strawberry jam, the decay, the wildness.. The jam thick with whole strawberries hadn’t seemed so wonderful to me at the time. Only now, sitting in my room with morning toast do I feel the loss, as I remember themContinueContinue reading “Uncle John”
Messy Desk…creative mind…
Believe it or not, this is the tidiest my desk has been in a long time..!😂 this is place I wrote and redrafted my novel which is now going out to agents 🤞🤞🤞 and also the place I design my hand lettered poems and also where I think up creative ways to teach creative writing.ContinueContinue reading “Messy Desk…creative mind…”
Love Poem: Poetry prints by Little Bird Editions
My children exhaust me and bring me to the end of myself but they make me who I am and they were the ones who taught me to love. I have recently launched a collection of prints which are my own hand-letterings of some of my poems about the early years, when everything is aContinueContinue reading “Love Poem: Poetry prints by Little Bird Editions”
Pick Up Your Violin!
When I am reading to my children, I am half-asleep, I am not distracted, my defences are down, and for me that is sometimes the best time to hear God. The latest one is Patrick by Quentin Blake, a tale of wonder and music. You can read the story here: https://archive.org/details/Patrick-Eng-QuentinBlake The message in this amazingContinueContinue reading “Pick Up Your Violin!”
Snow Day!
First appeared in The Guildford Dragon in Winter 2012.. Snow! What a great diversion from normal life for parents and for littlies. What was a dreary, never-ending January suddenly became a winter wonderland, a magical world for children. Everything was different for a little bit. As the snow fell on Friday, my husband rushed intoContinueContinue reading “Snow Day!”
A Fairytale Castle Party And A Collapsing Thomas Cake
This first appeared in The Guildford Dragon, back in 2012… It seems that every other person I know has a birthday in February. Not sure why, but it definitely seems to be party season. A few months back, a friend and I decided to have a joint party for our girls who were born threeContinueContinue reading “A Fairytale Castle Party And A Collapsing Thomas Cake”
On budgeting and how much it really costs to raise a child
Another old blog post. Apparently bumbos are out of favour now so shows how quickly this post dated! Written in Autumn 2012 I remember when I was younger, blissfully ignorant of the realities of having children and announcing at work that I was broody and couldn’t wait to start having babies. I was only aboutContinueContinue reading “On budgeting and how much it really costs to raise a child”
Mondays
This is a really old article that appeared in The Guildford Dragon. It warms my heart to remember how demanding my two were and how hard I had to work to fill a day with them! It must have been written in Autumn 2012 I think.. Today I had that Monday feeling. Mondays in GuildfordContinueContinue reading “Mondays”
Coming down to Earth at the National Trust
Again this is an old article that I have dug out today. This was written in Autumn 2012 I think… Today we drove for an hour and a half to meet up with friends from our home town (by home town, I mean the one that I and my husband grew up in, the townContinueContinue reading “Coming down to Earth at the National Trust”
Marianne Williamson on being given permission to shine
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child ofContinueContinue reading “Marianne Williamson on being given permission to shine”
To Lavish
To lavish (def: bestow something in generous or extravagant quantities on). I love the fact that God’s ways are not our ways and that the eternal mysteries of God are something that we keep learning over and over. They don’t naturally make sense to us, we can’t see them coming. In the world, we sayContinueContinue reading “To Lavish”
Gifts
I sometimes have to remind myself that God wants to use me; who I am, as I am, right now. It’s easy to write ourselves off and to think we’re not ready yet but God is looking for people who are ready and waiting; first to hear his word and then to obey it. HeContinueContinue reading “Gifts”
Readathon – Storymaker
This is quite fun and really silly! Have a go at creating your own silly story..Made me giggle! Readathon – Storymaker
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Will Gompertz on the act of creating
YES! ‘The act of making and creating is deeply satisfying, life affirming and rewarding. Yes it can be infuriating and at times disheartening, but nothing else can make you feel as truly alive and connected to the physical world as bringing your ideas to life. It is, I suppose, the ultimate affirmation of our humanness’ContinueContinue reading “Will Gompertz on the act of creating”
Keys and Clues – Creative Writing Club ideas..
Keys and clues for writing club this afternoon!
Magnetic Poetry: Story Starter
Story starter from this weeks after school club. Take a handful of words and play until you get a phrase that sparks the imagination! #livecreatively
Joan Didion on telling stories
‘We tell ourselves stories in order to live.’ Joan Didion
Michael Morpurgo’s Writing Advice
– Write because you love it and not because it is something that you think you should do. – Always write about something or somebody you know about – something that you feel deeply and passionately about. Never try and force it. – The most important thing is to live an interesting life. Keep yourContinueContinue reading “Michael Morpurgo’s Writing Advice”
Nicky Gumbel on Purpose
‘Your life has PURPOSE. Your story is IMPORTANT. Your dreams COUNT. Your voice MATTERS. You were born to make an IMPACT.’ Nicky Gumbel
Write From the Heart joy
Some of the things we have got up to last year.. miniature houses, cut out poems, zines, cut up characters.. We’re back for more this September running several Afterschool clubs in the area.
#4
The blossom like a surprise, it is there and then gone, The scent, and then gone, so quickly. The lush wildness overtakes the place, There is the feeling of hope And the first really warm days. May.
#3
On a train to Lime Street The fields rush by all green and yellow. For the first time we are going to a city for the day, diabetic daughter and I. Who would have thought when this thing showed up, how much it would overtake us, how from that day on, there would be fearContinueContinue reading “#3”
thought
I sit before a dark window frame, The sickly thought of black leaves rustling out there turns my stomach. The quietness rings in my ears and the glare of the screen wearies my eyes. I am thinking tonight of this treasure that I’ve found, the origin of flightlessness. What does it mean for me?
#1
Wind wraps around me like a blanket. In a blustery playground my boy has fallen asleep. And there is space and time, of a sort, standing hands in pockets, brook rushing by behind me, I hear it’s eddies and ripples, see the winter light brimming, spilling over, winding through the trees. All alone like IContinueContinue reading “#1”
Robert Frost on poetry
A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a homesickness, a lovesickness. It finds the thought and the thought finds the words. Robert Frost.
Circles
It is summer that makes me want to write, I swear each year it is the same. This time, this light, the long evenings, my hands becoming soft again, my skin fixing itself again. The older I grow, the more I see this life in circles. I swear it’s the same each year.
Thoreau on dreams
‘Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you’ve imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.’ H.D.Thoreau
Paris Review – The Art of Fiction No. 208, Louise Erdrich
The Paris Review is a literary magazine featuring original writing, art, and in-depth interviews with famous writers. Great interview with Louise Erdrich.. Just the type of thing to spur me on for a morning’s writing.. Paris Review – The Art of Fiction No. 208, Louise Erdrich
#85
‘Mummy’, he whispers in my ear, ‘Come close to me’. He is full of cold. It is nice to be wanted by this boisterous boy for a change. He can normally do it all himself. I move my head to his press my cheek against his fluffy hair, and soon he breathes the deep rhythmContinueContinue reading “#85”
#84
She won’t sit still next to me on the sofa, she jumps all over it as everyone else lazes in that post tea-time lull. She has started to tell me her dreams. ‘There’s a blue train’, she says, ‘it’s gone off the rails, it’ going on the grass.’ Freedom, I think, for her, Her lifeContinueContinue reading “#84”
#83
We are ships in the night, But I can’t complain. This is what we have wanted for so long. Tiny Leaves is making headway, travelling lightly, moving onwards.
#82
I could sit here all night and listen to the falling of rain outside. I am meant to be reading but keep getting distracted by the scrape of new furniture along the floorboards next door, by this outrageous rain that soaks with no apology. We have new neighbours, the children sleep, he has found aContinueContinue reading “#82”
#81
We go in to the caves by torchlight, he leads the way. He loves being the leader, being the quickest, the fastest, always. We won’t let his dreams defeat him.
#80
Peace is how this feels: Something accomplished, And a space before me, a day, at least of just my little brood, my family. The pirates came and we had crazy fun, Water bombing that baddy pirate Pete. There were tears and laughs and shouts, A big chocolate cake And a sword each, buried in aContinueContinue reading “#80”
#79
A week full of school things and not enough sleep or headspace, and there are twelve little pirates coming to play on Saturday. I want it to be special for him but I have to admit I’ll be glad when it is done with.
#78
We go to ballet, and there she quickly changes into her tutu, picks up a star and dances around. They go on a magic carpet ride to the beach, they make a castle and smash it down. She comes alive, skipping around this room. There is magic in the lonely sound of this piano. ItContinueContinue reading “#78”
#77
I will do the garden this evening, pull the roots up from under the soil, shake the mud from them and pile them up in a bucket. There is nothing so therapeutic as gardening, and for a long time I didn’t know this.
#76
Cold back, happy heart. The boys fall into bed at 8.30. Sam has been at school all week, His first week. There have been tears each day from my love, My brave boy who was the biggest and loudest in the Preschool playground, who jumped the highest, who ran the fastest. Just next door, atContinueContinue reading “#76”
#75
And then the next day, driving down to Kidderminster, I am glad that we are together, not sad that I am wasting a day going all that way to fetch a car. Because after all, when you have children, what is time wasting anyway? We pick up the car, and drive back to a playgroundContinueContinue reading “#75”
#74
He does it again, my adventurer. Has a gig, plucks a cellist from the next village along. The car breaks on the way so the RAC man takes him a couple of junctions up the motorway to meet a hire car so he can still get there, in the end, to walk onstage and toContinueContinue reading “#74”
#73
Sitting outside, listening to the beautiful noise coming from that shed. Tiny Leaves rehearses with his cellist. This is what summer is like, After two weeks of cold rain, I had almost forgotten. Mud covered children at dinner time, Finding potatoes like jewels in the mud. Birds singing still at 8.30, The fresh scent ofContinueContinue reading “#73”
Flag on a hillside
He knocks at our back door, stands in the kitchen with the weight of something to say. We are eating dinner with the kids and he starts to tell us about the day before, how he had met an old friend, how he used to love her. The tears spring to his eyes and weContinueContinue reading “Flag on a hillside”
#72
Tired tonight after friends staying, so they fall into bed, her clutching her pretend jewel, him dreaming through the stories. Littlest asleep in the other room already. Sometimes it works like clockwork and these little ones too tired to protest.
#71 – Sadness
It is like a lurch in the heart, not a pang of love, but that same throb. It gathers at the centre of my ribcage, a fistful of cloth. It is a pebble, hard and smooth that will not be moved or chipped away. It is a mouth fixed downwards, a resigned stare, a gentleContinueContinue reading “#71 – Sadness”
#70
They dream of jousting but when we are there, they are scared and can’t understand it is make-believe. We walk in circles through the maze find the secret tunnel and come up behind the waterfall. It is a magical day.
#69
I’ve said it before butI want it always to be like this:little people in command of their space, walking to the drawer to get paper,appearing at the doorway in funny hats.Calling ‘mummy’ in the night.This is their safe space,Their kingdom.
#68
Martha has us for lunch today; A table full of dishes carefully prepared. The children play with her childhood toys And bounce on her trampoline. I can remember that summer, that transition time; The leaving and settling as I went off to uni.
#67
We go to castle on the border, it rains and I remember that it rained the last time that we came too. We climb the winding stairs and they try on the chain mail, and they can’t believe how heavy it is. The rain clears and we go outside and they roll down the bank,ContinueContinue reading “#67”
#66
I am reading my blog, And find my first post, And realise it was four years ago today And realise also that it was the first time We saw her, on the ultrasound.
#65
I don’t know how to dress for this weather; pouring rain, then bright bright sun. I have a carload of sleepers and five minutes to spare. We have come to meet a friend at Attingham, but there is a tinge of sadness as I wait because all of these sixty-somethings that I see walking aroundContinueContinue reading “#65”
#64
Busy today, We go from thing to thing to thing. And quiet now, They have all gone. We watch red dry pictures of Australia on TV. We drink strong tea, feeling tired, feeling thankful, still that some days things are just normal.
#63
He has been drawing, drawing, drawing, this Sam. He is obsessive, like his father, he does not give up. He cries when I draw the wings of his dragon too small. He draws beautiful things: Monsters, houses hiding behind trees full of leaves, Pirates, a Daddy with a generous beard. We go out for anContinueContinue reading “#63”
#62
It feels like I can breathe a sigh of relief, perhaps. Not that he is home yet, But out of the woods, let’s say. A funny week, Of tenterhooks and distracted anxiety. Of offered prayers, Of thankfulness.
#61
Facebook tells he that he has died, this man that has made us all laugh, or cry, so many times. The part in Mrs Doubtfire where he loses his kids in court, the words of wisdom he speaks in Good Will Hunting. So sad, so sad that there was not another way for him, thatContinueContinue reading “#61”
#60
These children, they don’t sit down! They play, they fight, they colour and learn to ride a bike in one day. They jump off the slide, don’t sit still at dinner, can’t wind down enough even to watch TV. They talk all through the bedtime story, Because they keep thinking of things to say (soContinueContinue reading “#60”
#59
The moon is as bright as a lamp tonight; it lights the road as I walk across. The wind whips the bushes and trees up into a fury behind me. I am glad for the yellow warmth of home, for the door opened to welcome me in.
#58
After eating a good meal that we will remember for a long time, we wander around the cobbled streets of this old town. We head up to St Chads to see the fireworks, and they open the gates to let us in- an unexpected gift. The fireworks open like flowers before us in the blackContinueContinue reading “#58”
#57
They go on a bear hunt today. Swishing through the long grass, hunting for gummy bears. They crawl under a willow dragonfly and then mould mud pies on their palms. They eat porridge cooked on a campfire in the burning sun. And afterwards, in the shade, They dip their toes in the cold, cold stream.
#56
They start at the bottom, Go a little way, Have us catch them. ‘Again’, they say, ‘A bit higher’ ‘Catch me!’ ‘Push me!’ We sledge at Inwood on steep grass banks. It lights up their eyes, Just as it surely did for us when we were young. And I realise that in so many waysContinueContinue reading “#56”
#55
It rings in my ears, the quiet in this house, here, now. I can sit down without wondering where Ben is or what he is chewing. I can hear children (not mine) shouting, two fields over. A car hums along the road. The rocking chair creaks as Joel sits down. He starts to talk, slowly,ContinueContinue reading “#55”
#54
We are blown away by this life, these words, this hope, this kindness. We must start to live differently.
#53
He screams in his high chair, sends the broccoli rolling onto the floor, says no to his drink, the banana. So I pick him up out of his chair, wash his hands, his face and hold him to me as we walk upstairs. Up there, he is a different boy, quiet and happy. I runContinueContinue reading “#53”
#52
We sit there and watch them, us five, as the sand martins dip and dive towards their home. The young wait at the door, their heads peeping out. Across the river from them, I sit with my young tribe And think how fast the time has gone, And how they have grown. These three beautiesContinueContinue reading “#52”
#51
I can just remember now, if I close my eyes, the feel of that electric blue water, my hands pushing it aside as I swam, I can feel the wet steam being pulled slowly, into my lungs. I can smell the hot wood, feel it burn against my back as I lie down on theContinueContinue reading “#51”
#50
He pulls the carrot from the ground, And is amazed at what he finds. The bright orange of it peeks through the soil which he shakes from it. ‘My carrot!’ he says. He sowed it, watered it, watched it grow and is pleased with himself now, pleased with what he finds.
#49
What have I loved most today? A day with nothing to do. Painting in the garden, tea and cake for elevenses. Three happy children, sun shining. They dance in the sprinkler, she sings ‘it’s summer!’
#48
After dinner I am sweeping the kitchen floor, when I turn and pick up the scent of fresh mint that drifts in the back door. Sam is waiting there, almost completely covered with it, the leaves trailing over his head, hiding, waiting for his Daddy to find him.
#47
Many times we have driven up this road, in desperation to get back, to rest, to frantically search for the place where we could slow down, where we could breathe deeply. But now in the blue shades of the sunset on the M40, we are driving home. And for once I am at peace withContinueContinue reading “#47”
#46
A fifties dress that kicks out from the waist, and a pair of bright red shoes, for walking down the aisle. She looks beautiful and as confident as she ever was; without loud words but with something else that speaks truer and deeper: her loud kindness, a loud life.
#45
Today, Littlest is coming to light, Pushing up through the baby months, He is pointing and saying da. He crawls onto his brother’s bed And bounces with him, He crawls around after them in the hot sun. He knows he is like them, that he should be doing what they do, So he chews pensContinueContinue reading “#45”
#44
She whines after her nap, Fell asleep in the car with Daddy On their way back from Sainsbury’s But she shouldn’t sleep really, She’s too big. When she woke, Red cheeked, with hot tears, I told her Eva was coming, Her little friend, her cousin, And she stopped, just like that.
#43
It is the moments like this that you treasure when camping, that make it all worthwhile, The five-thirty wake up, And then, when you come outside, Like this, and you see the blue grey mist wrapping around the mountains, You see the light of dawn come blazing through, Like pure gold, And even though youContinueContinue reading “#43”
# 42
There is wonder in their eyes as they come face to face with the lobsters in their tank, scuttling across the floor, not much bigger than Ben. A touch of magic, of electric blue.
#41
We’ve set up camp, the children burble in their tent. ‘I want to sleep like this’ ‘the other day, last time, you said’ we mill around getting sweet things and cups of tea. There are cakes and pancakes to be eaten. Sheep bleat, the light falls.
#40
He won’t stay in bed. It is 8pm. I have been up since 6. I have to go to the supermarket. In two days we are going camping. I’m already exhausted. Sometimes, yes, it is too much.
#39
I took the fabric from my mother for these curtains, It came from her mother she said. In the daytime they look cream But at this time, the early evening or the morning, the leaves and prints come through, All delicate and secret until the light is just right.
#38
Sometimes we don’t even have time to say a word to each other, Don’t look at each other before we must attend to this or that, The fight or the nappy change or the insulin. And then after they sleep we each have our uphill journey to continue with. Music, writing, these dreams, we pullContinueContinue reading “#38”
#37
Sports day and she doesn’t know how to do it, She is shy and curls herself around my legs. She is in a running race but slows to look at me taking a picture, She stops short of the finish line and turns to see if I am still there.
#36
We break crockery every day it seems. There is a little stack of it in the corner of the kitchen that builds up and up. Mugs, a cup, two bowls. I can’t bear to throw it out just yet, I will turn it into something good one day.
#35
The kids are asleep and we’re like ‘quick! Tidy the house, get the dishes done, stand outside in the evening sunshine’. There must be some semblance of normality here, without the whirlwind, the half-thoughts, the avalanche of children. It is so good to have the sun on my face in the evening, to hear theContinueContinue reading “#35”
#34
There are toys strewn over the house, a pile of washing up, a garden full of the trail of a day’s play. Ben is not quite asleep, I listen to his little noises while I watch the news on low volume. The other two sleep, tired out by the sun. I can’t face tidying, OrContinueContinue reading “#34”
#33
He won’t be put down today, he eats only cool grapes and strawberries. He won’t sleep on his own bed, only next to me, his head wedged up against the pillow. He is sad and teary with teething today, and wants only to be held and touched. He wants to know I am there, thatContinueContinue reading “#33”
#32
7-1 and I feel awful for Brazil, for all these guys in the stands with tears running down their cheeks, for the shattered dream, the shame.
#31
I take chocolate, a cup of earl grey and my aching back up to my little writing room where I can pretend that I have all the time in the world to sink into ‘The Grapes of Wrath’, to look outside the window to the fading light. Three sleepy bodies are breathing heavily. My husbandContinueContinue reading “#31”
Home
Sometimes it is the weight that you take in a place. Or not. Sometimes you feel as if no one would even notice if you were gone. Sometimes you feel as if you were a bird, a tiny skeleton, and that it would be just as well to go and land somewhere else.ContinueContinue reading “Home”
#30
Your face makes a shadow against the sun. You crawl over me, Pinning me to the earth, This moment, This place. I’m lying on the grass in the hot sun. The bells ring loudly this Sunday afternoon. I’m too tired to move.
#29
She whispers to me in her bed, in the half-light. She says ‘there’s a little car at Grandmas, I’ll show you, I’ll get it out of the shed.’ She is serious, her face set, her little eyes shining. I can’t remember why she started talking about the little car, or what it has to doContinueContinue reading “#29”